Heavenly Dream

Ok, as promised, a nice love poem.

Hope you all like it.

My heart is yours...

These little words I say,

To describe how I feel.

They are the ones I whisper and pray,

So caringly,

Everytime I think of you._

I think of you, my love,

Everytime I breathe.

And when I talk,

My words are sweeter,

Because your voice is on my spirit._

My mind carries pictures...

Images of fairy tale,

Thoughts of what I want with you.

My knight in shinning armor,

You are my angel too.

I'm waiting for your rescue,

From loleliness's embrace

Which you replace...

With yours._

Yor warm body,

Holding mine,

Your devouring lips,

Kissing me softly,

And the deep vibe of your voice,

While you innocently play with my hair...

Can this vision of perfection

Be anymore heavenly?

My mind says no,

But my heart will not speak,

For fear of jinxing this dream..._

I must do it,

I must shout it out,

The whole world must know,

That my heart has unfrozen

Since you touched it with your soul._

My heart was dead,

My mind was dying,

Then you came,

And brought me back

From my darkest nightmare.

And, smiling, made me an angel,

Your little angel,

And, with my wings,

I wrap us both this dream..._

So, what do you think?

Kissies

^_^

Val

My Dark Roses

The dark roses in my palace wall
Shine in the twilight of the setting sun.
Their petals, so dark and smooth,
Cover my skin with a velvety sting.
My blood, falling upon the dark roses,
Sheds no shadow, but enlights my spirit,
It soars floatingly with the misty scent
Of blood stained roses...
In the stary twilight...

Thornes of flower, thornes of thought
Both prick painfully, yet,
While one touches your body
In an innocent pain,
The other stabs your soul
With flaming, malicious disdain.

Well rooted may be your emotions,
But despise not the rose roots
For they can grow once again
Whenever ripped from their land,
Unlike the deadly emotions
We humans tend to kill.

Curling and strangling with might
Well rooted are my roses
In the dark sterile earth
Grasped from the depths of my soul.
The ghostly light of this sun
Twists their faith and curses their doom.

The moon is now high,
Risen from my my eyes,
On dark palace walls
It shines...
My blood stained lips,
Velvety petals of roses and pain,
Lightly enlighted by this silvery glow
Of the queen of night
My mother moon,
She shines with grace,
And her bright pale touch
Will lead me in the misty shadows,
As they cover my path.

The soft whisper of the brise
Brings to me divine lullabies
And, as I cry myself asleep,
As fairies put out the stars
And angels wrap me in feathery wings,
Demons kiss my lips
And bitterly make me wish for sweet release,
Which I call upon with dispare,
Release of death and pains embrace.

Here I stand,
My bleeding heart stabbed by my roses
As the palace walls of my minds maze
Fade away in fog,
Fade away in light,
Like a shadow of the misty dawn...
My tears drown my soul,
As my blood drowns my roses...
They burn, my roses burn!
My roses of thought,
My roses of dream,
My roses, my mind.

By: Valkery Millenia

So, what do you think?

kissies

^_^

Val

"Suicide is a permenent solution to a temporary problem" (DarkHellFire)

(This post may contain some similarities to the one I posted in DA and Valhalla)

I know this is a quite painfull subject for some people, but suicide is a reality among us.
I myself am not afraid to admit that I have tried twice, and who knows what the future holds for me? I just hope I don't ever have to go to that place again...
What do we think when we are about to comit suicide?
Among middle-aged people, normally suicide is something reflected on and therefor we find suicide notes, or discover that the method had been thought of a lot. But among teens and younger people, we rarely find suicide notes...
The truth is, younger people are more optimistic and faithful and we know we still a long life of chances ahead of us, but when we are depressed, when we cannot withstand the pressure anymore, we snap. Thats why there are so little suicide notes, because this act in the youngest population is rarely reflected on.
In fact, it has been proven that, normally, teens and young adults don't really intend to die, they just snap under the pressure and are trying to find a way to stop the pain, so they don't think on the other consequences.
I myself, found that a good way to avoid this, is to try and keep you're mind focused on small little optimistic details that help you through the day. Like thinking about anime, or watching it when you're down, focus on doing a character profile of those you like the most... Or think about that good friend of yours and talk to him/her. Or think about a certain relative you love and will no longer see, if you do such a thing. If you have a pet, than that can help a lot too, the sense of having to protect someone or something and making it happy, boosts our responsability, and helps us stay sane (that why you hardly find mothers of young children comiting suicide, for example).

A good thing for depression is creatind a little alternative life, a daydream in which all is possible and you can control all, and whenever you are down, just pick up where you left off.
Just make sure your little world is not too perfect, the stronger you are in it, the stronger you will become in real life, because the mind controls all.

I am here for all who wish to talk about this subject or their own experience, if you my help, I'm ready to listen and help all who want to talk or simply want a friend.

Be strong, keep your heads up high!
Remember, no matter how bad things are now, in the future you will be able to control your life and it will be wonderfull, because you deserve it!

Lot's of Love
Valkery

ps.In my next post I shall give som helpfull hints for depression (and in Valhalla too).